Title's because I'm listening to the song on repeat while I'm typing this post out.

It's been so long since I did this, no? The whole emo-nemo on my blog, cry my heart out, listening to sad songs-- then back to my whole strong front. I feel like it has become my concept tho, for 2(or is it 3?) years, I'm that heartless girl. The kind to never believe in promises, to laugh at every compliment/confession given to me. Really. But how did my concept shatter so easily this time?

I’m getting farther away from you,
you’re disappearing
Don’t easily forget me,
because it’ll hurt too much

I asked bb whether the girl or the guy is stupid if the guy made promises to girl but broke it in less than a month. Bb said mostly the guy because it isn't wrong for the girl to believe in people but still a bit dumb if the girl just knew him and believe in his sweet promising words. I can't stop laughing because I have always believed that one shouldn't be so naive. Talk is cheap, so why believe in promises made by speech so easily? It's so stupid because now the girl is crying by herself because she believed. She believed that when someone sends her a 3 pages long text about how special she is, she must be really special to him. She believed that when you have heart-to-heart conversations at 6 in the morning about how she is going to finally put 100% in a relationship after so long and that he will not disappoint her, that guy will really not let her down.She believe that when that guy said that anyone who leaves her is stupid, he will not be that stupid guy. She believed that when you walk hand in hand and stargaze together, that it really means something this time.

I guess love is leaving
it rides the wind and flies far away
I guess everything is changing
I guess you’re changing just like me

But now that girl is cying so hard, her chest hurts. She's sad because losing someone special is. She's angry because she have never thought that she would be that stupid girl crying over a guy. She's happy because her predictions about their relationship being temporary is right.

And that girl is none other than yours truly.