The last time I blogged was a year ago and while reading through all my previous posts, I realized so many things have changed.

I ditched that loser who mistreated me for an entire 9 months (still had no idea how I stick with that asshole, it will always be my biggest regret). I met a lovely guy who helped me got through that horrible phase. Mateen's perfect. He's everything a girl wants in a guy.

But the constant feeling of frustration and loneliness is killing me.
It's suffocating me.

It's been 3 years and I'm still the same girl who cries herself to sleep and tells herself that 'tomorrow' will be better.